A collection of experiences

I had an idea for a long time that I’m finally ready to abandon. The idea was an article called “The Thrift Shop Doth Provide”. But junk is junk and I’m drowning in it. Sustainability is important, but no… we can only do our part and the way I’ve been going about it is broken.

If my closest friend from Toronto, a woman who truly inspires me and whom I love very deeply can meet me where I’m at, and come visit me just for the experience, I’m confident she could liberate me in phenomenal ways.

Yesterday was an active day. i had to renew my car insurance and decided to walk to do it – 5 km of walking for my physical health. I put on my bravest face and attempted to radiate positivity. Some of the coolest stuff happened:

• Cookie sales boy extraordinaire – I wish you all the success in your enterprise
• Threads – amazing retail experience
• Car Insurance – some young ladies are so professional
• Lunch with my newest friend
• Walk to the aquatic center for a sauna
• Walk back home
• Prepared to come up and see mom who was on a well deserved vacation with her boyfriend to visit family and friends in Eastern Washington

I’m taking this break to heal, and trying to exhibit the patience necessary in the doctor/patient relationship. Too much impatience is part of what is overloading that system and making it take longer to get the life saving test that I need scheduled, but I”m fairly confident that they’re not going to forget about me. In fact, the surgeon called me long before MyHealth Portal was updated, which happened today.

I’m struggling with self-care and I have lost my appetite. I cannot do it all alone and am trying my hardest to receive love and care from my mother even though our relationship is fraught with a lot of interpersonal misunderstandings. I’m too much for people sometimes, and I was a demanding child with a lot of needs. She always spoke for me in medical settings, but this is my turn to do it for myself.

This is an odd opportunity of sorts.