sustainability through corporate social responsibility?

Unfortunately, this isn’t the answer for me. It shakes me to my core to try to spend my way out of this crisis. While everything still hangs in the balance, I do my best to put a positive face forward.

Today was a good day. A lot of chats and catching up with high school friends’ parents and favors from people who are better friends than I had realized. Between today and yesterday, I feel much more like my slot in this community stands. I do deserve to be here.

Now if all you can do is buy and fulfill your needs with newer and better things. You’ll probably want to choose to buy from a company with a mission for giving back. I’ve been told recently that I planted 8 trees. I’ve been told I’ve reduced ocean plastic, too. Not enough for me, nothing I do is ever really good enough for me. I’ve never actually treated planted…I was coached into being too soft for that.

As I write this, I sip on a virgin huckleberry mule, and listen to a podcast on sobriety. Alcohol makes cancer spread. I might as well give myself a fighting chance while my appointment with a medical oncologist still hangs in the balance.

If he doesn’t have everything he needs by then diagnostics wise, it could be moved out… at least no one I’ve talked to has promised to me that that won’t happen. I just feel like nothing can be certain for me health wise right now.

Last night I watched a few movies on Amazon Prime. One was Dutch or German (Forever Ibiza?) or something like that. I didn’t have subtitles on but followed the gist and it made me laugh almost as hard as the first John Wick did, around the same time I broke down into tears on the Deerfoot while listening to Metric on the radio. I’m going to do this more often, it’s good to be bemused.

I’ll take the northern lights tonight, if I’m lucky enough to catch them. I’ll take the advice of wiser people and cool my jets. I’ve got a lot I want to work out and I’m pulling for myself. One day at a time, actually it’s more like one pomadoro (sp?) at a time for me. 15-25 minute increments.