Category: The Scare
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Conflicting appointments
the following is a lot of stress for nothing. i woke up on fire at 5:45 am to check MyHealth Portal, only to be dismayed by a conflicting mammogram with my existing medical oncology appointment. A social worker at Monashee called today and she’s checking with my NP whether this is needed. I’ve been poked…
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Frustration when living on borrowed time
I’ve been thinking a lot about my laggard status and how I’m resistant to technological change. I like the old systems better, the monthly view on a calendar posted in the kitchen; the notebook in my purse to write someone’s number down. I even prefer walking to driving. This is probably why I’m likely to…
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My M.O. seems to be reverse mode
I seem to be the type of person who needs to know the solution to cope. Knowing how big a deal something is or the big picture is crucial to me functioning with everything that is on my plate. My job is supposedly to relax and get prepared to heal. Last night was the first…
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Keeping it together when everything is falling apart
Today, I got a call from the cancer agency, and it confirmed my worst fears. This one’s going to be a pretty hard fight and I don’t have a support system in place that will make it easier. I don’t know the prognosis from words spoken to me, just the context given to me by…
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Selkirk College and Meditation 101
There is a community calendar from Selkirk College filled with a variety of continuing education opportunities. Catalogs are released every season. The courses are well-categorized. So I signed up for a range of courses: ring making, memoir writing, using social media for businesses, writers in a digital age, and finally, Meditation 101. Only 2 of…
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Does a Scarcity Mindset Exacerbate Cancer?
I write this from a hospital. I just couldn’t cope with the stress of waiting for appointments to be scheduled with little to do beyond a little Spring cleaning. My mother also pushed for me to go to the hospital, but that’s an aside. How does cancer spread in the body and can your mindset…
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A collection of experiences
I had an idea for a long time that I’m finally ready to abandon. The idea was an article called “The Thrift Shop Doth Provide”. But junk is junk and I’m drowning in it. Sustainability is important, but no… we can only do our part and the way I’ve been going about it is broken.…
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First day of Summer?
Today was the most productive day I’ve had in a long while, and the muscle soreness is already setting in. I started my day at my mom’s and got my car all packed up from doing laundry and all my “retail therapy” hauls. This frenzied rush involved misplaced keys multiple times, coffee for breakfast, a…
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Sustaining Indulgence
Today began very groggy from the generic Ambien I took last night. I did take it late, when I woke up around 1:00 am, but I’m hypersensitive to medication and that stuff seemed to stay in me until the afternoon. Overall, I woke up in good spirits. I made my Nespresso and turned on the…
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Day one of retail therapy – Rossland
One of my earliest memories is my dad flicking quarters ahead of us while we were walking, an action which I probably didn’t notice at the time, then being coached to pick it up. I got a piggy bank at about the age of 5, and my dad would routinely do this ritual fostering excitement…
Imbued Experiences 